tuesdays with Harold

well, it's official. my boss and i have a scheduled meeting to discuss my post-cruise ideas for my future. eek! needless to say, i'm little scared/hesitant/anxious/scared. i've reached that point ... you know the one ... i'm finally scared to ask for what i want ... what if i actually get it? what if what i think i want is really wrong and horrible? what if i get what i want and i find i hate it? once that happens, i have no job, no insurance, no security, and may or may not know Spanish. what then? i'm scared now and am second-guessing everything. on seventeenth-thought, maybe a job in an office in front of a computer really isn't so bad... *sigh*

once tuesday's meeting is over, i'll post my post-meeting post. :-)